The Syllabus, the meat, MIND CONTROL!

Now that we’ve warmed up a bit by creating a habit of recording dreams and pulling Tarot cards, it’s time to get down to business–to the meat of magick as it were. Because, after all, recording dreams isn’t magick. We’ve agreed to use Peter Carroll’s book Liber Null to begin as it outlines a concise process for developing mind control. We’ll be focusing on the first section titled Liber MMM. Part of the process is to make a record of all of our daily attempts, which will be recorded here.

In addition, now that we’ve had some practice with our dreams, we will be taking steps toward mastering the dreamworld by attempting to manifest a specific object in our dreams. Successes and failures will be recorded here as well. The ultimate goal of gaining mastery over the dreamworld is to practice lucid dreaming, contact entities, and achieve exteriorization, or out of body experiences. But we’ll start with manifesting an object.

Dream Journal 1/31

I don’t remember much–I fell asleep on the couch and then woke up and went to bed, so I don’t remember anything from the first half of the night. I can remember being in a van with some kind of step relatives, or maybe in-laws. T was there, but otherwise there was no one I actually know. Just random dream people. There was some kind of drama or controversy surrounding a situation or person that somehow affected me. I got fed up with their bitching and asked to be let off at my mom’s house, which happened to be right up the road. T helped me get all my bags out of the car and I told her I’d have my mom or K drive me home the following day. She was sad I was getting out of the car, but understanding. When I went into my mom’s house, she and K were happy to see me. And there was chocolate everywhere. The fridge was filled with boxes and tins of chocolate of different varieties. The cupboards were crammed with it and it was all over the counters. We all started eating it, trying different types and mixing and matching. There was this assortment of different mint chocolates and one with toffee that were quite delicious. They seemed so happy to see me that I didn’t want to ask for a ride home right away. I don’t remember much beside that.

Tarot 1/30 The Prince of Swords

I drew the Prince of Swords today:

“Represents the airy part of air. A young man, purely intellectual, full of ideas and designs, domineering, intensely clever but unstable of purpose, with an elusive and elastic mind supporting various contradictory opinions. He slays as fast as he creates.”

I don’t like the face cards–I never feel like I encounter these people. But again, maybe I’m lacking context in only drawing one card.

Three of Disks debriefed

“Business. Paid employment. Commercial transaction. Constructive building up. Increase of material things. Growth. Commencement of matters to be established later.”

Well, yes, I did go to work. And I did do all the rearranging and cleaning necessary to finally get a microwave at work so we can all eat hot food during our breaks, so that was nice. So I feel this card is quite accurate. But I go to work often. So why don’t I get the “Paid employment” card every time I go to work. Is the card suggesting that work is the primary part of my day? Perhaps so…I did end up working about eleven hours, which is rare.

Dream Journal 1/30

My dreams from last night are a bit hazy. The first one took place at a school, but classes weren’t going on. The parking lot was completely vacant, and I think it was raining. Water was rising from a pond near the parking lot. That morphed into something where I was involved in a World of Warcraft style duel, but it was live action. My brother and I took turns fighting a Paladin. He lost and I won. My brother felt bad about this, but I reminded him that I was a level higher than him, so he shouldn’t feel bad.

After that I had a Battlestar Galactica dream. I was aboard the Galactica and seemed to be responsible for identifying the remaining five Cylons if I could. We were docked somewhere making repairs to the ship and I was observing the ship’s crew. I found this one man who looked like a cross between Adama and Tom Zarek and he seemed suspicious to me for some reason. I asked him if he was a cylon and he said, “Yes.” He was very calm and he just walked away. I put him on my list. The other person I thought was a cylon was Starbuck. I was watching her make some repairs to the hull of the ship. She was walking away from me, but then she turned very slowly and saw me looking at her. She came back and asked me why I was watching her. I told her I thought she was a cylon. She was angry, but also seemed hurt by this. She said, “I thought you liked me.” I tried to explain that whether or not she was a cylon had no bearing on my liking her. She cried a little and asked me why I thought she was a cylon. I explained that she’d been awake for days, hadn’t been eating and seemed to have more strength than a human ought to. She clearly didn’t want to be a cylon but it began to sink in that she might be one. She asked if I would still try and kiss her someday even though she was a toaster. Then my alarm went off.

Defeat Defeated

Well, I drew the Five of Swords Saturday morning and it didn’t really come to fruition. I had about an hour of ire at work–there was someone there I can’t stand to work with at all. She drives me crazy–out of my skull. But she was only there for an hour. So it wasn’t horrible, just annoying for a short spell.

Anyway, the card didn’t seem to hit the nail on the head the way it did the other two times I drew it. And no complaints here about that!

Tarot 1/29

Today I drew the Three of Disks: Works. The book says:

“Business. Paid employment. Commercial transaction. Constructive building up. Increase of material things. Growth. Commencement of matters to be established later.”

Sounds promising.

Tarot 1/28 Apathy

I didn’t draw a card today. I laid around the entire day playing video games and watching TV. It’s been quite awhile since I did that and it was wonderful. Maybe I’ll draw a card and ask the deck what yesterday was like. Could be interesting.

Dream Journal 1/29

I only remember one big dream that was broken into a couple of segments. In the first part, I was trying to write down messages off an answering machine. I don’t remember what any of them were, but I remember having a really tough time hearing them and writing them down at the same time. I was using a black sharpie on the back of a large envelope. Then I was supposed to meet or pick up this guy I knew a long time ago, SB. I think we were going to have dinner or something and I was supposed to watch his kid. At one point in there a box of something was delivered for P. It was from someone he used to work with and was supposedly the contents of his old office. Then I was at my mom’s place, but it wasn’t the Damascus house. K was little. My mom and W and my step brother K and I were starting up some business venture with J, this guy I know from work. He’s a PI and was involved with the IRA when he lived in Ireland. We had to drive somewhere and we had a pile of cash in the trunk. It was all loose bills, but they were stacked up nicely in a square pile. We had to drive somewhere, and along the way, something happened where everyone decided it was a bad idea to have J involved in the business deal. W asked him to drive for awhile. The idea was we’d goad him into driving fast and then get him arrested for kidnapping us. W programed the side mirrors to say “Help2″ which was the code for “Help I’m kidnapped” apparently. The mirrors blinked the message in green LEDs, meanwhile W was telling him to speed up because we were late. In typical J fashion, he sped up, bragging about his driving skill. I was sitting in the backseat wondering why J couldn’t see the message in the mirror. At that moment, we were pulling up to a tunnel and had to pay a toll. J happened to look at the mirror and realized what we were doing. He stopped before the toll booth, got out of the car, and threw the keys down into the tunnel. He got really angry and hollered but I don’t remember what he said. Then he said, “Which way to Cambodia?” My step brother pointed through the tunnel and he walked off. We all stood there and stared at him going away. At this point he had hair (he’s normally bald). It was black and kind of unkempt. After he was gone I went to search for the keys but I realized that he must have picked them up and kept them when he walked by them. I kept searching anyway, in case I was wrong, but I didn’t find them. Suddenly we were all at home and my mom was checking to see if he’d left any messages on the answering machine. She was worried he’d break into the house and kill all of us. I was sort of worried about it too and realized I would have to go kill him before he could do it. Suddenly I was in his house. I didn’t have a gun at first, but then I had one with a silencer. I went into his bedroom where he was sleeping with his wife. I shot him in the head twice, which woke his wife up. It was Athena from Battlestar Galactica. She was mad because I’d shot her husband in the head. She backed out of the bed. I didn’t want to shoot her at all because I liked her, but I couldn’t have her calling the cops or anything. I had to explain what was going on and I ended up wrestling her to the ground. Before I could figure out what was going on, we were kissing, and it was suddenly as if we’d been in love all along. But there was something wrong about it. She told me she’d redecorated and asked if I liked the way the room looked. It was very messy, but somehow seemed improved over the last time I’d seen it. I told her she should mail P back his stuff, because I saw the contents of the box he’d gotten earlier on her lower shelf. At this point, I noticed her husband wasn’t in bed, and there was no blood. I didn’t say anything about it because she didn’t seem alarmed by this. A moment later he walked in, bald this time, with a hole in his head but otherwise fine. Six from BSG was with him now. I think they were carrying beers. J made some comment about my bullets–about hiding them or giving them back or something. Six had written some kind of poem about me and Athena and put it on the wall with illustrations. I was embarrassed by it. Six made me feel like I was cheating on her. I decided to leave. I kissed Six and Athena on the cheek and hugged J, who was very wet with sweat. I left, but needed to stop at the bathroom. Their bathroom had two doors, one on each side of the toilet. One closed, but the other didn’t It kept blowing open with the wind, but there was a curtain there too. I was trying to hold the door in place and pee, but it wasn’t working. I was also worried that someone would come home and see me peeing. I woke up on the verge of pissing in the bed.

Dream Journal 1/28

For the first time in quite awhile, I remembered absolutely nothing.